I’ve had a really big week.
I held two webinars on Monday, for the first time ever.
I’m a very last minute person, so I didn’t plan them the week before.
I knew I’d be able to do it on the weekend,
Because those kinds of things are easy for me and don’t take a long time to do.
I’m blessed with inspiration just when I need it.
Except.
I forgot that I was going away with my husband for a romantic weekend,
And we had agreed to leave our laptops at home and unplug other than check-ins with the kids.
No problem.
I stayed up late Sunday night and created the slide show.
Really gorgeous, may I add.
But first we took the kids out for dinner and planned our Purim celebrations for Wednesday.
Purim is a Jewish holiday where we wear fancy dress and deliver yummy gift baskets to family and friends.
I haven’t done it in a few years, and realized that soon my very youngest will lose interest
(in me and the tradition) so I decided to resurrect it for this year.
Monday morning I set up the technology for my webinar in the same way I do for my regular video conferences I hold with groups of client and coaching students, and I’m ready to go.
Or so I thought.
My first webinar was a technological disaster.
OK.
Lucky I had all of Monday afternoon to figure it out.
Which I did, thanks to Coach Google,
In between baking hamentashen (traditional Purim yummies) with my daughter and her friend.
Monday night’s webinar was 95% flawless (and very well attended, so thanks for coming if you did).
After, because I’m a last minute person, I spent much of the night figuring out how to upload my video and send it out to all of my listeners.
Of course, I have a skilled VA team who could do it for me in a second, but unlike me, they were asleep, and I really wanted to get it to those who couldn’t make the webinar live immediately
because I truly believe that the information I shared is life changing
(if you missed the webinar, and want the recording, hit me up here).
After, at about 2.00am, I cleaned the kitchen and packed away all the hamentashen.
I didn’t even eat any.
OK maybe one.
Delicious.
I noticed myself wanting more – many more – we made a variety of flavours,
And I noticed myself choosing to feel light tomorrow instead.
So much better.
Tuesday was a pretty full day of coaching, parenting, kids’ basketball games, debate tournaments, and delivering on a promise to watch gymnastics training.
No problem for me.
Here’s why.
I know I can do it all.
Because I chose it all.
All of it.
The busy, crazy, fun, endless activity and fulfilling of obligations and promises.
None of it burdens me.
I know I don’t have to do any of it if I don’t want to.
And that makes all the difference.
As soon as I acknowledge my active choice, all resistance drops away.
I don’t have to go to any of the practices or games today.
I can cancel my clients if I want to.
Yes, they’ll be disappointed, and the kids may not have a ride home,
But no one and nothing is making me do any of it.
Yes, I’m tired and I’ll take a nap someday
But the only reason it’s not today is because I chose this exact day.
I could easily find how it’s not fair that I have to do it all
Or that I should have more help
Or that they should be more independent
Or that I should work less.
All of which could be true for me if I wanted to make it true
By believing it
(and believe me I spent many years living that painful version).
But instead I choose this.
All of it.
Full frontal living.
Because it makes me feel alive, engaged, and expansive.
What are you choosing?
And how does it make you feel?
P.S. Chag Purim Sameach to all who celebrate! Notice that, while one hamentashen is delicious, the second and third start to lose their appeal 🙂
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