I know what I used to think and feel.
First sign of fall.
Mild panic.
Trying to remember what size I was last fall.
Was I thinner?
Moderate panic.
What will I wear now?
Did I keep the “fat clothes” (please please yes – frantically dig them out)?
OR
Was I fatter?
Anxious.
Should I buy smaller clothes? Will this size last? What if it doesn’t?
OR
I don’t even know what size I am now?
Numb.
Scour the closet to see how many stretchy clothes I have.
I once lived an entire winter in Lululemons and Juicy tracksuits.
I don’t think I looked in the mirror once that entire season.
No fun, this rollercoaster between mild and severe panic
and a whole lot of out-of-control feelings in between.
Now, no matter which season we’re moving into
I have one size in my closet.
It’s nice and sparse.
And all the clothes are the same size.
Every day, same season, new season, I open my closet
And there are all my clothes
that all fit the same.
It’s such a relief
and such freedom.
Want to throw out all the sizes that don’t fit you?
Want your only thoughts about new seasons to be thoughts about the new season?
Ready for The Season of You?
Join me and four other students in a brand new, three month class
designed to take you to an intimate connection with your body and your mind.
By New Year, you’ll be planning your celebrations with only the celebration in mind.
What to wear will be a sideline. A fun one.
What to dream of for the New Year? We’ll cover that one too.
And one resolution that won’t be on the list: ending your diet war.
